funny and ironic and unbelievable

It's funny and ironic and unbelievable. It's sad and depressing and heartbreaking. Yet it's happening and it's real and it's better.

Trying now to stay away from the people you thought you can't live without before. Creating now a gap between you and the people you've been so close with before. Giving up now the people you've been fighting so hard for before. Leaving now the people who were the very reason for your coming back. Hating now the things you used to love doing with them before... Changing now a lot of things because of a sad realization.

It's now indeed funny and ironic and unbelievable!

now I know why

Now I understand why. Finally, I truly understand "why" and "how", though I didn't really know "what" and I never truly know "when". All I know is it's happening, it's existing, it's growing, sometimes it's fading, but most of the time it's staying... But now I know why. Now I truly know why. And now it's time to stop blaming my innocent heart. Now I truly understand her... why....how... she has reasons. Valid. Enough.

But decisions were wrong.

Sorry dear heart...

sigh! :(

Sometimes, the people you learned to value and trust so much will hurt you. They will do things you never ever imagined they could actually do to you, and all you're left to do is feel so disappointed...and so very disappointed... and sad because you know you don't wanna give them up but you have to... coz u know by now, they're not the ones worth keeping at all. And you've been blind all along... ;(

that other part

There will come a time in your life when you will become so stupid. That no matter how wise and intelligent you have always been, you will find yourself so dumb, so wrong, so unprepared. So caught offguard. So careless. There will come a time when you will become a fool, and you'll curse and laugh at yourself for being such a fool...
There will come a time when you will become your own enemy, your own hater, your own nightmare...and you can hardly believe it when you find yourself actually fighting with yourself..
There will come a time... and that time will never fail to come. And when it finally comes, just let it. Welcome it. Embrace it. Who knows, you might love the lesson it brings.....

which, im sure, you'll do....