now I know why

Now I understand why. Finally, I truly understand "why" and "how", though I didn't really know "what" and I never truly know "when". All I know is it's happening, it's existing, it's growing, sometimes it's fading, but most of the time it's staying... But now I know why. Now I truly know why. And now it's time to stop blaming my innocent heart. Now I truly understand her... why....how... she has reasons. Valid. Enough.

But decisions were wrong.

Sorry dear heart...