#10 - 17 reasons why

He sees all the details of me.

From the moment I step out of the door (be it the office, house, mall or anywhere else), he sees if something's off or that my blouse is crumpled, my jeans has dirt or it's just too tight or too high-waisted. He can tell if I am stressed out and even notices my "morning glory" and usually do the liberty to take it away for me. He can also see if my dress or bag or sandals is new. It's like I'm being scanned from head to foot, zoomed in to the nth level.

I don't know but I find it really amazing. I have this person who minds every little detail about me and who always wants to know every single one. He never forgets to ask how my day was and what I did the whole day at work - all the little details matter and he patiently listens to all of it. I've never known someone who is more than willing to know or someone who is more observant. 

It makes me feel special.

And pretty!

And I like it! :-) 

Not a 17-reasons-why post

Hi, 

This is a break from my 17 reasons why series of blog posts. Cause I think this deserves a spot here. Of course, it's my ultimate dream come true. So, read on!

It’s been exactly 31 days after the results were out – October 18.

It’s around 7 in the evening. I checked my phone and saw a text from a close friend in Cebu who happened to take the chemical technician exam just a day after my board exam. She happily announced that we both passed (I took the Chemist licensure exam, by the way). I can tell that that was one of the most indescribable moments of my life! I swear! Goosebumps all over me!!! I got totally teary-eyed. Well, maybe I cried! I can’t remember. I was just totally absolutely really happy!

Maybe not everyone could understand. But yeah, I think no one could really, like really really understand. I was not happy just because I passed the board exam. God knows there’s so much more than that. My journey to being a licensed chemist is not your typical board-exam-struggles story. The journey’s not just for five months. It’s way way before that. And the journey’s not just about the review. There are so many things before that. I think I don’t need to discuss them one by one here and I think I don’t want to dwell with them over and over again.

So what exactly this post is all about? Well, I just would like to express how happy I am right now – that finally I am now a licensed chemist. Everybody in the same field knows how hard it is to get this license. Our board exam is not the usual ones. The national passing rate is awful – every single year. Usually it’s just 50% and this year, it’s just 44%. There are so many I know who didn’t make it including people close to me. That is why it took a while for me to really celebrate my passing of the boards. I couldn’t help it but feel sorry for my colleagues. That’s one thing I don’t understand with the board of chemistry. There are only very few who take this course, much fewer who take the risk and take the board exam, but why do they only allow so much fewer to pass? Anyways, that’s another story.

After the results were out, I received an overwhelming congratulations from everyone – my friends, family, relatives, co-workers and even previous co-workers. Slowly, my passing of the boards has become a believable thing for me because it seems such an impossible thing to achieve before. Passing this is never easy for everyone in this field and I am just so thankful that I made it.

Of course, I wouldn’t make it if God has not blessed me so much. His timing is indeed perfect. He has sent angels to help me. It may have taken longer for me but it is definitely worth it. I have questioned so many things before but now I finally got all the answers and I’m thankful – forever thankful!

Thank you Lord for all the blessings you have showered upon me and for all the challenges that have made me stronger and wiser now. I am at a loss for words of your blessings and the greatness of your ways. Truly, you are an amazing God!

And to those of you who think that everything’s so wrong with your life right now, just wait and continue to trust Him. Because one day, all your questions will be answered and all your dreams will come true – in God’s perfect time!

And of course, I wouldn't survive the review if it were not because of this ever-supportive boyfriend. He is one of the angels God sent for me - my bibikoooii!

#9 - 17 reasons why

He makes me feel okay.

I'm a certified Capricorn - an over-thinker. I always overthink things that it usually ends me up stressed, like having sleepless nights spending most of the hours thinking and thinking and still thinking.  Plus I'm also a pessimistic person (sad!) and I worry a lot. Although it's not emotionally and mentally helpful for me but it makes me feel okay - expecting the worst so that when it comes, it cannot impact me that much. Sometimes I feel this bad habit's affecting my health (of course, stress does!). Maybe this explains why I couldn't gain much weight ever since. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing.

Board exam dates are fast approaching and here I am, as expected, having too much stress and pressure and worries and negative thoughts running inside my head. Really, this is affecting me in all aspects! This is not your typical board exam because Chemists licensure examinations have a very low passing rate ever since. I don't know why is that. There are thousands of new licensed engineers or physicians or lawyers produced every year but only, like, 500 new chemists every year. Woooaaahhh!! Well, that completes my worries now.

But being as worrisome as I am, it feels good to have someone who makes you feel okay. I don't know but it really feels different now that he's here that he always knows what to say and somehow I feel better. And he never gets tired of listening to my pabalik-balik nga yaw-yaw about all my worries and fears and stresses. He's just there. He listens. He gives advice. He jokes. He makes fun of me. He makes me laugh.

He makes me feel okay.

And somehow, I feel okay.

#8 - 17 reasons why

His surprises REALLY surprise me!

I'm the type of person who couldn't be surprised easily. In fact, I don't remember being really surprised that I totally didn't have a single clue about it. Friends have arranged surprises for me before, birthdays usually, but I can sense that a surprise's coming. I don't know. It's as if I got some weird premonitions for things to happen (char! Manghuhula lang? Hahahahaha!). Plus my instincts and "feelings" are really powerful most of the time.

I guess it's because of that that my life has been the predictable one for me. Everything that happened in my life, every decision, every next move, every new path and even everyone in it, are all so predictable because I make them predictable. I make sure things work out the way I planned them to. 

But not until he came.

Since the day he has become a part of my once-predictable life, things have changed. Life becomes a constant surprise. Everyday becomes exciting and there's always a new adventure awaiting. 

But my favorite part of it is his surprises. He surprises me in ways nobody else does. He's totally unpredictable in his most amazing ways. From flowers, to gifts, to adventures, to efforts, he really has the talent of surprising me that I usually just end up with my most kilig grin. 😁😁😁 

Like, he gives me flowers in random days. He plans get-aways right there and then. He shows up in the most unexpected time of the night. He brings chocolates in times that I least expect him to. He leaves sweet notes in my working table. And I don't know why but I just find myself surprised because I usually never saw those coming.

Sometimes, I think that maybe, just maybe, he's really born for me - to forever surprise me.

Cause after all, he himself has been life's surprise for me...

In fact, my most wonderful surprise. 💖💗💟💘💓💛💜💞

Hi bikoooii! Thanks for all the surprises that made me super kilig and, of course, thanks for being my greatest surprise. I love you!😘😘😘

#7 - 17 reasons why

Unlimited I Love Yous

I get flooding I love yous from him every day. I know this is something not uncommon. Every couple especially in their early months do this. Then the numbers slowly go down as the months and years go by (sad reality, tsskk!). But I just think his number of I love yous are not the usual and the consistency is definitely not the usual.

He has always been sweet and vocal of his feelings for me and, of course, always showy about it - something I am always happy about. Even before when we were still dating and up until now, his sweetness and consistency are still the same. Nothing has changed. His efforts to make me feel special are always to the highest level. With him, I've never felt unappreciated and unloved.

Even when we're both busy with our work, he never forgets to send a text with his I love yous. Plural because it's never just one I love you. He's the kind of man that feels that one I love you is just never enough.

And I thought it'll just last during our dating stage (it's like 4 months?). But it didn't! Ok maybe it's just for a couple of months since early stages of relationship are always the sweetest part. But still, it didn't! He's still the same sweet and vocal man I have fallen in love with - from the I love yous, to the efforts, to the flowers and all. He has always been consistent, I can say.

And so I am thankful.

So I tried counting the I love yous I get from him in one random day - from text messages, messenger, and calls (cause I got curious!). Just for the sake of this post.

And guess what I got.

Secret!!!! :-D :-D

Hahahahaha I'll just keep it for myself. Anyways, I've already said enough here. I am just overwhelmed with the number of I love yous I got in a day and it's all because I have this super sweet man in my life.

Hi bikoooii, keep the I love yous flooding, ok?! I love love love love you as much! :-*

#6 - 17 reasons why

He gives me adventures.

This is probably one my favorite reasons why I simply find him amazing. He never runs out of ideas and excitement about our next travel or laag-laag. He loves to go to places with me. He loves taking me to places I've never been before -  be it just some nice spot in the nearby town or to a hundred-kilometer-away place or to another island. The distance doesn't really matter. What matters is the thrill and excitement we feel when being in a place for the first time - and being there TOGETHER for the first time!

Going somewhere for the first time is quite exciting and challenging and always memorable. Of course, none of you knows the place. You both don't know where to go and what to expect. Every moment's a constant surprise. That's why most of our travels turned out to be laughing and exciting adventures with so many getting-lost moments. Well, after all, that's what it's all supposed to be, right?

We don't really have that very faraway or out-of-the-country travels - YET. We will have that soon (wink!). But the places we've been to together so far, knowing that it's still our first year, are notable. Notable for someone like me who is not really into traveling and who doesn't really have so much travel stories before. And knowing we're both busy in our respective works yet we still find time to go out, travel, relax and have fun - together! Not everybody has something like this, I think, which makes this love story a special one, hehehehe. :-)

To sum it all up, here are the places he has taken me for the first time. And I can still vividly remember all the beautiful memories of these moments - Every. Single. Moment!😊😊😊

One of the not-so-far-away places he has shown me. It's just found in the nearby town where I worked yet it feels like somewhere far. I never thought that there's a place like this in the small city of Bais. For those who have gone to Manjuyod sand bar (Maldives of the Philippines), they probably know this place. But for someone like me who hasn't gone there, that explains my surprise. And ow, there's the scenic mountain view too (that's more perfect). Sadly, I wasn't able to take a photo because I was totally awed by the beautiful scenery and, of course, with the person I'm with (chos!).

Now sorry for the faces, hahahaha! But that's all I got from that time. This was in the famous Boardwalk of Tanjay. It's my first time. I'm living a few kilometers away from Tanjay so it's not usual for me to be in this place. Been hearing about it for so long yet wala ra. No one took me there but only him.

Now this is one of my favorite travels. It's in La Vista mountain resort somewhere in the Occidental, like almost 200-kilometers away from home. We haven't been to the place before and we didn't even know exactly where it is or how to get there. We just crazily decided to go there and it turned out to be a super-worth-it adventure!

The resort's super private that it looks like it's reserved for just the two of us, hahahaha!

Still in La Vista. The resort offers quite a few adventures aside from its beautiful mountain view. They have a 1.5-kilometer zip line (back and forth makes it 3!), cable car ride and horse-back riding. Usually I don't do stuffs like these because I'm just so afraid of heights and I'm always thinking that there might be an accident, which obviously prevented me from doing extreme adventures in the past. But now, I have this not-so-kulit boyfie that's just soooo excited to let me try out these stuffs and of course, I always end up agreeing. So, there you go. That's me about to take what if feels like the scariest ride of my life! Wooooaaahh!!! I almost cried, really! Like, really!! 

The travel that surprised us the most! Although we're fond of going on adventures without knowing exactly the place or the route but this one defined it literally. This was in Sugar beach, Sipalay - another adventure in Occidental. But this one's from the opposite side of La Vista, I think, cause we took the opposite route to the south, not sure though! Well, this is not your "usual" Sipalay adventure (the dozen islets are the usual). Sugar beach is a long stretch of white sand hidden behind the mountains. And it is really hidden! You have to go the extra mile just to find the place cause it seems like there's no visitor-friendly signs there and all the small roads are confusing. Plus there's no other way to reach the island but to ride a small boat. Google map too was confused about it's location. It kinda got us lost a couple of times.

The entire beach is beautiful and what's amazing about it is that only a very few people reach the place (it's quite difficult to find it by land, really!) that' why it's private and so perfect for me 'cause I hate beaches with a lot of people (arte lang? hahahaha!). There are a lot of beach resorts too just lining all throughout the whole stretch for you to choose from. They are owned by foreigners who obviously just fell in love with the place and decided to stay there for good. The rooms are quite affordable but the foods are kinda expensive. Tsk!

You have to ride something like this to be able to reach the place. It was fun!

Ow! This was when going to Sipalay. We had to go through this zero-visibility part of the mountains. It doesn't really show zero visibility in the picture but in reality, believe me, it is!!! And it's super cold! That's why I needed a hug (weh? hahahaha!).

The REAL scariest adventure of my life - ever!!! For a person who's so afraid of heights, this is torture! But of course, the feeling of accomplishment after, that I feel like I'm the bravest girl in the planet, is incomparable. And this is quite famous so it feels good to have tried something everybody's been talking about. This is, by the way, the sky adventure in Crown Regency hotel in Cebu. They also have zip line but I don't wanna try it anymore (kotang-kota na ako sa zip line!). Plus the rides are not that affordable, you know. There's a dinner buffet too in their hotel's resto with superb food, I swear, and with different varieties of cuisines from all over the world.

The previous pic was the edge coaster and this one's the sky walk where you'll be walking on  a glass and the whole city's underneath you. Scary. Got shaky knees.

This one's in Dauin. We just wanted to relax and breathe the fresh sea breeze so we ended up in this resort. This place is quite special for the both of us. There was a time when we felt like everything's so wrong and the whole world's against us and we just found ourselves running away from everybody and everything and ended up here one fine late evening. I can still clearly remember everything back then when the night's so quiet and we just stayed there staring up at the stars (our favorite thing to do). It's like our safe haven.

Now this one's not new here. I've already made a post exclusively about this place before. This is one of our first few adventures - ow not this one - the first time we came here actually. This was the second time already because the first time we came here, the resort's fully booked. That's the time when we had an exciting and tiring and thrilling adventure finding this place. And ended up disappointed because we can't stay at the resort. But luckily, we found a resort just a few kilometers from here which is a very nice and private place also with a perfect beach. It's quite a good find and I definitely want to go back there one day. The place's quite memorable for both of us. Really memorable.

Now this was the most recent one although it's already three months ago, before I went for review classes. Obviously, this is in Bohol. There's so much to see in Bohol and thank God we were able to go to all the places we wanna see there - of course, Panglao is number one on the list. As usual, we got lost for a couple of times (we hired a motorcycle for 24 hours so that we can have an unlimited tour). We got lost but that adds up to the fun and that completes our travels! We really had a great time during our trip.

Of course we didn't miss to visit his twin tarsier! hahahahaha peace bikoooii!!!

The ever-beautiful Panglao. Well, it's not actually as nice as the pictures in the internet but it's still worth visiting. The small town of Panglao is quite amusing. It's small and far yet it has something like a downtown area complete of all the stores and shops and cafes and restos and bars. The whole Panglao beach even looks like mini-Boracay because of different restos and bars lined up in the area (Jeff just told me about Boracay cause I've never been there yet). The night life by the beach is amazing for a small faraway town like this. 

There are still so many places we've been to together but I'll just end it here for now before this post goes too long. Yeah, I know we haven't been that far (no plane-ride trips yet) but again, distance doesn't really matter. It's the adventure and the memories, right? Besides we're still on our first year. 

And for a start, this is really something.

Til next time! :-)

#5 - 17 reasons why

He never wants us to go to bed upset. 

There will always be hard times. There will always be small fights, misunderstandings and all that. It's just up to both of you on how to deal with those. Well, I'm just lucky enough to have someone who doesn't treat a misunderstanding like nothing - someone  who makes sure an argument is settled before we say our good nights.

He always doesn't want us to go to bed upset or mad or not okay. Between the two of us, he has always been the one more affected or, should I say, he's always the eager one to settle things immediately cause I'm always the one who wants to hide and disappear for a while and just come back later if I feel like coming back already (yeah, stubborn me!).

And it makes me admire him even more. Usually the guys are the ones who care less. But not him. I can be the most stubborn person in the world yet he always makes me end up realizing how wrong and immature I've acted (in a nice way), which is really true most of the time. He always wants to settle the problem before the night is over. He will never sleep knowing we're both upset, though sometimes my stubbornness wins over and I usually end up sleeping immediately and leave him hanging (hating myself for that!).

And that's when I know I was acting immaturely.

Well, what more can I say? He may not be perfect (as he has also his own beautiful flaws) but he's so much closer to it. Where can you find a guy like this nowadays? He just has so much love to give and I just have to love him as much. I have always felt the luckiest because he's mine and he's loving me this way. I've never been this loved.

Always and always, I will say... I couldn't ask for more!



To my bibikoooi,

I know there are hard times and there are my "difficult days" when I am the hardest to understand but you have always been understanding. Thank you for the endless patience and for all the love. With that, I'm loving you more and more. I love you!
   

Cause this is the apple of my eye!

#4 - 17 reasons why

My constant comment-mate!

99% of the boyfriends are not that showy especially on social media. Only a very few guys would constantly post how much they love and appreciate their girls. Much more on engaging in long, nonsense, crazy comments with their girls, knowing that many people will see it and find it corny or whatever. I know it's not a measure of the man's love. But c'mon, girls love to see their boyfriends become showy and clingy and extra sweet on social media. It's a FACT! 😊😊😊

So my man belongs to the very rare 1% who loves to post things about me, about us, on FB. He loves to leave sweet, funny and even nonsense comments on my every post. We love exchanging comments on our posts, well, mostly annoying ones just to piss each other off. But we are natural bullies to each other, so we can live with that. I assure you. 😂😂😂

But, of course, I find that amazing about him. It's not everyday you'll meet someone as sweet (like makes you super kilig) as him... who rides with your crazy nonsense ideas and never fails to make you laugh every single time. And who's never ashamed to be as corny and playful and as out-of-this-world as you. 

Cause yeah, we are corny like that...

But we can be corny together! And in love! 💖💖💖

Check out some of our nonsense and playful exchanging of comments in FB as proofs! 😂😂😂😂

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#3 - 17 reasons why

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Cause you give me "feelings"

Feelings I've never felt before. Feelings I couldn't describe and couldn't imagine ever existed. I just feel real happiness radiating from inside me and it's all because of you. I still get goosebumps whenever I remember our first few dates (by the beach under the moonlight), our first few conversations (mostly nonsense, only aliens can understand, hahaha!), our first few laughs, our first few mini-adventures (ceres-going-nowhere moments), my first few kiligs, our very 1st selfie, your very first rose...

... and especially, my first few glimpse of real love.

You took me to a whole new world and let me see a whole new meaning of love. You took me to places I've never been before. You have given me adventures I never thought I would be able to have. You gave me hundreds of reasons to smile, so much of it! You filled my heart with so much happiness. You took my hand and led me to a world made for the two of us. Because for you, it is always about US.

You have the purest heart reflected in your eyes. You have a beautiful soul destined for mine. You have the most beautiful stare that never fails to melt me every time. And until now, they do affect me the same - every single time.

Whenever I remember all the crazy things we've done together and all the things you've done for me, I honestly get teary-eyed. For I never knew what I did good to deserve someone like you, to be loved this much. The kind of love I have long been searching for. The kind of love that overflows for me and me alone.

I can always feel your love. It grows every day and flows endlessly deep within me. And I couldn't thank you enough. You always and always make sure that I know I am loved...


...every day...


...in every single way.

And so I pray that you will FOREVER be here to stay...

spontaneously and genuinely happy with you bikoooii... Always! Stay with me forever, okay?<3 td="">

#2 - 17 reasons why

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Flowers

Every girl loves to receive flowers. C'mon, who doesn't? Some girls just deny that, saying they're not into flowers. Nah, I don't buy that. All girls love to receive flowers especially from their significant someone. A girl just says that because her man doesn't give her flowers. Some men are really like that. Well, most of them, actually. They find it unmanly to go to a flower shop and buy flowers or stop by the side of the road to pick flowers for his girl.

But not my man.

He constantly gives me flowers. From beautiful bouquet to the ones he just picks from the streets. And all of them are equally appreciated. I appreciate every single flower he gave me, be it expensive or not. See, girls don't need expensive bouquets. Every flower, bongga or not, makes us super kilig!

Another special thing about him is that he gives me flowers in random moments. No occasions needed - at the most unexpected times that I usually end up being surprised! No one has ever surprised me the way he does. He's just super unpredictable in the most adorable way.

He gives me flowers without being ashamed what his boy friends would say or what other people will say. He picks flowers from his workplace's garden even other people are looking. He never cares, hahahaha! Because for him, seeing me happy and kinikilig is all that matters!

See, he's definitely every girl's dream. And I'm lucky he's mine. Thank you bikoooii for making my dreams come true - it's finding a very rare and precious man like you. I love you to bits!

P.S. Check out some of my posts with my flowers from him! Cause I'm always the proudest for having such a thoughtful and sweet boyfriend!😊😊😊😊

#1 - 17 reasons why

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So, as promised, I'm on my 1st reason. 16 more to go! wooohooooooh!!!

Feeling like "huh??????????????" about this? Well, just please read the previous post, 17 reasons why, in case you're confused what this "#1" is all about. Ok, go on... go on... Read it. This post will just be waiting here... (wink!)

Reason #1:

Unlimited Patience

I am easily irritated. I throw tantrums when not in the mood. I request, ask and demand things I am not really sure what, hahahahaha (he has to guess). I'm always easily out of mood, by the way. Mood swings, short temper, name it. I usually have that. And I tell you, things aren't gonna be easily fixed once it's started.

When I'm hungry or stressed or the weather's hot, I always easily get irritated. I wanna put a huge sign on my forehead saying "DON'T GO NEAR!". I'm like a walking bomb. Or I just feel like I am, hahahaha! I have to put all the effort I could just to not pangaway on people. Well, I don't really do pangaway but I am super good in killing people with sarcastic sarcasm. See the adjective? Hahaha it's for emphasis. Sarcasm that  kills!

And well, to add up to that, you can just imagine what monster I can be during my periods.

During these times, my favorite person to put all the blame on to is of course - him. My bibikoooii. I can be the most unreasonable maldita in the planet. The level's unbelievable. I can't even believe it myself, hahaha! I just snap one moment and then later realize how rude I've acted and then always end up feeling guilty. Like, really really guilty. Then I apologize. Then I really hate myself for being such a bratt.

And then he's always just there - patiently waiting for me to calm down. He always forgives. He always understands. He always chooses to love me beyond my very imperfect attitude - my mood swings and kamalditahan. And that's one of the millions of reasons why I love him... Why I chose to love him.

I'm such one lucky girl to have a man that is always man enough to understand the unexplainable things women are going through every single day. Really, it's not easy being a woman. There are things going on inside our body that we don't have control over. I can't even really understand myself sometimes - what I want on that day, why I'm being grumpy, why I feel like I hate everybody, etc. I don't know.

But one thing I surely know. I have a man who understands - who buys me ice cream or take me out to eat kimbap or shin noodles or boulevard squid rolls or siomai or Leylam shawarma or spicy prawns or lechon or choco mousse cake or kitkat (my favorites!!!). 

And that makes me lucky. Like, really really lucky!

Thank you bibikoooii for the patience and for more patience, hehehehe! Truly, I couldn't ask for more! I love love love love you to the moon and back!

what are you lookin' at? hahahaha I love u!